“The more it snows
(Tiddely pom),
The more it goes
(Tiddely pom),
The more it goes
(Tiddely pom)
On snowing.

And nobody knows
(Tiddely pom),
How cold my toes
(Tiddely pom),
How cold my toes
(Tiddely pom),
Are growing.”
-Pooh

Right now the temperature outside is 1

I am having what I think might appropriately be termed “a frustrating week.” I hesitated to write about it on my blog for awhile, but it is my blog after all started by me as a way to write about things in my life.

You know how sometimes things just build up on top of other things until you can’t deal with them any more? That is kind of how I am feeling about school right now! I spent over 16 hours at school yesterday and I am sure the day before came pretty close to that too. 16 hours of classes and cleaning out kennels and dealing with frustrations that should never have existed. I had to put up with a professor lecturing me about not doing something that was never explained to me or written down anywhere for me to find out how to do it. I wouldn’t have minded the professor coming to me to talk to me about it, however that person chose to lecture me in front of the ENTIRE class while EVERYONE was taking A QUIZ! I was already having difficulty concentrating due to being up at 4am, let alone having someone yell at you while you are trying to take a quiz, well forget trying to be able to do good on that quiz after all that. I know that I probably need to go talk to him and explain that I found his remarks very unprofessional and rude (in fact others have come up to me and told me that they found it completely out of place and that they think I should confront him about what he did), however I am just so tired of trying to fight things like this. A professor should know better, especially when it was their fault the student didn’t know anything about what they wanted done since they failed to ever explain it or be available once the student needed to ask about it. (It would be a different story if it was my fault for not going to ask about it, but I did try and that professor was not around at all on monday when I needed to ask about the situation.)

Right now I just want a year to bury my head in the sand and either cry or sleep…. I have way too much to do, not enough time to do it, and am not sure how it is ever going to get done. I barely have enough time to schedule a little routine thing like a doctor’s appointment for myself, let alone a vet tech internship for the summer (and I am sure I am going to have a hard time finding one too!). I don’t know why my professors thought it would be great to schedule my classes so that I have school mondays through thursdays from 8-4 (during all normal business hours), but apparently they did. The frustrating part is that not everyone’s schedule is like that, but you do not get to pick yours and I swear a certain prof just wants to make it so you can’t work or have a life outside school (in fact he has been heard saying almost that). So instead, I have been gone every day for the last 3 days all day. I haven’t seen Ben much or Pounce & Axel, and I miss them and I miss just being me. Pounce just sits in front of me lately and cries until I pick him up and carry him constantly when I am home, or if I don’t he climbs up my leg into my arms because he is missing me. Axel starts pacing around 9 or 10pm to let me know that he wants me to go to bed so that he can cuddle up to me. I just feel like….. I don’t even know, I am too tired to feel anything right now…. I don’t feel great though….

Tomorrow, I am supposed to take 1 quiz, 1 written exam, and 1 practical exam. Not sure how that is going to go seeing as I haven’t been home for very long yet today and I am extremely tired and just want to sleep. So sleep or study is the question I guess? Or drop out of school so that I can actually do something other than study and stay at school ALL day long?

Sorry it is all so brutally honest, but it is just how I feel so I am not even sure that I do feel sorry about the honesty.

Oh it snowed here too to top it all off, and this city has no idea what a snowplow is or how to drive in the snow. Augh!

Just a warning… I have been awake since 4:40am so there is no guarantee that any of this will make sense. Oh and you did read that right, it does say 4:40am. Why? That would be because I am studying to become a vet tech and in order to practice we need real animals. With real animals comes the need to clean and feed them, which means that someone has to do that. So they put everyone on a schedule and 3 times a semester you get to take care of cleaning up after the animals with one other person 2 times a day for a few days. Yeah! Just what I want to do at 5am when it is below zero outside. At least you get to work with someone else, I couldn’t imagine having to do all that at 5am by myself! (Thanks Jes:)

I also feel a little crazy right now…. Not only am I in school this semester, I am also taking a ballet class on the weekends (did I mention that before, I don’t think so….), and starting this week my horseback riding class starts up. Oh and I have kennels at school this week (the mentioned cleaning up), and next week (because Jes & I are crazy and needed to switch so we weren’t stuck doing them a different week when she has to work & I have class). Yep, it is official I am crazy.

Guess what! I actually had some time to work on sewing a scrub top this weekend. It is nearly finished so I will post a pic when I am done. It was kind of crazy making it, since I didn’t use a pattern or anything. Basically I just cut the fabric and hoped for the best! I think I like it though:)

Okay I think I need a nap now or something…. zzzzzzz……….